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Tuesday, May 6, 2008

I'm not alright.

I know many will reprimand me because i should tell myself that i'm alright instead of "i'm not alright" but i think i should stop lying to myself. I am not alright but i believe that i'll be fine. So, readers peace to you and peace to me (:

I may seem all smiley and stuff but right behind that smile theres a thousand pails litres of tears overwhelming. I tried very hard to make it seem like nothing and glad to say, Matin, AhBoon, Junjie and Hilmi helped make it easier. Matin, Boon and Hilmi probably don't know what i'm going through but i think Junjie understands. Thus, to repay him, i help edit the photo he took with his girlfriend and i'm so happy that he likes it. I want to blog not because i want him to know that i'm feeling terrible, but because i know this is where i can express. This is probably where my BFF(s) can know about how i'm doing, maybe one way of sharing. I know that they are reading (:

I'm like crawling into this dark hole, so wet and dirty and small. Trying to find light but to no avail. Don't worry because i know i'll be fine. I have so many people behind my backs i can't let them down (:










Messages / Tag Replies :

Ming(: - I KNOW WHO YOU ARE LE !! KokMeng !! (:
Janna - Linked sister (:
JunJie Pally - Thanks loads today for listening to my complains. Thanks for your chin chao to help jiang jiang huo (:
Ambe Jie - Sorry jie sunday cnt go out with you ! Nx saturday will be our sentosa trip !



You asked if i would turn back,
i know how much i wanted to but i resist.
Recently, sweet text messages decrease,
but aggressive ones increased.
You always say that you love me
but i think all i need is to feel love and not to hear love.
I hope you'll understand this.
I never was bothered about whether
you send me a sweet good night msg or not
because all i need is a msg
that brings care and concern but not sweet talk.
All i need is a boyfriend who can really give in to me.
I always hear people telling me
how nice their boyfriends have been to them.
I want to be proud of my boyfriend
yet i believe most only heard that we quarrelled.
No one is perfect i can tell
because i'm not a good girlfriend myself at least,
ask yourself have i changed?
From someone who never really bothered about her boyfriend
i become someone who actually made a photo collage for her boyfriend.
I'm never a "art" person be it a DIY person.
Or maybe i was the one who never appreciated.
Maybe i was the one at fault.




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